My story,My life

Friday, March 30, 2012

Some ward gathering going on! :)
YAYAAAAAAA!
With the awesome bunch, i became gaga as usual.

Minus off the mosquitoes, it was a horror for me, i seriously wanna kill myself.
Poor legs, leaving so many marks on them, hate east coast for now.
Thank god I got them, they made oncology awesome.

♥ 3:36 PM

Monday, March 26, 2012

YAYYYYY, 9 DAYS ANNUAL LEAVE!
Jun xiang came back, so weeeeeeee metup!

Sunday, watched the hunger games!

awwwww, best movie of all i can say!

Murni's birthday as well, :)

Simple celebration but most importantly, we are all there for her!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MURNI, YOU'RE ALWAYS THE BEST GIRL EVER!

♥ 1:43 PM

Friday, March 23, 2012

Feel so guilty for not blogging, zomggg. Life goes on, and no more living in the past.
My cancer ward, as usual, its always my eye opening place.
Drama place as usual.
Just love my working colleagues!

Not lying, there are all nice people!

Wont upload much, teheee!
the oncology nurses, much much salute!
especially my enrolled nurses, sometimes i wonder how they sponge my ill patients, powerrrr.

and my love life, its still the same?
complicated. new people coming in, left, and i'm still single.
no worries, still the same, i'm partying really hard. And i still love clubbing, never get tired of it.

And to the new him, didnt want to let you go. but since you're still living in the past, i think i'll still let you go. i wont want to be selfish.

Meeting the right person at the wrong timing, its no longer joel.
i wouldnt say i really like you, its just some feelings towards you.
and yes, i kinda miss the daily call from you, the non stop messages you sent when i go missing,
the way you got panic when i'm angry, the way you made me laugh, and how i wish, i can have you back. i ended with you with the last phonecall, hey you, i dont wish to tear again.
And i'm just afraid to fall in love again.
never and ever, the phobia.

♥ 1:38 AM

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Everything was just a dream.

I lost myself, I lost to who I am supposed to be.

So I wonder whats gonna happen 6 months later, i hate sept.

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Thursday, February 23, 2012

Maybe thats my choice?
I'm just so confused. Maybe should I say I'm stupid enough.
I certaintly think that I got no rights to say others, because I myself is a failure.
Appearing like i'm good, I'm just good at it.
So tell me whats gonna happen for the next 6 months.
I wish i got someone to rely on. and not just imagination.
I wonder how would i be like if we never met.
maybe...................................
You know my weakest point, and i wouldnt deny, it touched my heart.
Should i or should i not???

♥ 1:13 AM

Sunday, February 19, 2012

The 6 nurses headed USS, HOW NICE!

Yay, great day with them.

Not forgetting I went to the club after my USS.

LOL. with cecline, kai sin, cally, sam, poh.

Awesome can!!!

The torturing part is the next day, when I gotta work..............................

♥ 1:29 AM

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

I ended my 3 days in charge, not easy.
In charge for 3 days means I have to answer for every single shit thing.
Doctors, family, patients.
whatsoever, enough of heavy workload.
I went out right after my Saturday morning shift.
Made them wait that makes me feel so bad. just because i got never ending work to do.

Its with Wei ren, Xue leong, Chi ming and Xinni.
Awesome.
ATE AT MARINA SQUARE, HEADED MBS FOR TITANIC, TOOK RIVER TAXI TO ONE FULLERTON FOR TAKE OUR CAR, HENDERSON WAVE AND TO BUKIT TIMAH FOR SUPPER.

Love them laaaaaaaaa.

♥ 1:36 PM

Monday, February 6, 2012

There was one who was only 25 when he left us.
Now there's another who's 29 who left us.
In oncology, no matter how much you wanna draw a line between work and personal life, you'll just feel depressed when your closer patient left you.
The point when you feel no mather how much chemotherapy they're going through is just so useless?

He was the first one I resusitated after a chemo reaction.
He was the first one who called me opera because of my eyeshadow.
He was the first one who gave me a doll.

hey boy, i prayed so hard that you can still live on, never will i expect i got a news saying you left us.
you left.
Remembered that we talked through phone on my birthday.
it was really nice hearing your voice.
And calling back the ward, and you asking, "june eh?"
its really sweettt.

To haemato ward, seeing the confused you, and of course i know you wouldnt want to be in this state.
To ICU, seeing you intubated, heartache.
Drawing the curtain, seeing the pale you lying in that cold and empty room, i almost broke down.

Alex, you made me realised life is just so short for us to regret.
You made me realised I have to cherish every each moment of my life.
You made me realised staying positive is the best outta everything.

I gave you so many times of platelets and blood transfusions?
I see you almost every single day for like more than 4 months?
We chatted so so many times.

This time round, i just hope your girlfriend will be good without you. at least you gave her good memories. She was the one who walked through this whole process with you, and now you leaving her behind, i just hope she'll be fine, really really fine.

Alex, rest in peace.
:(

♥ 8:43 PM

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Happy happy girl. Underwater world, butterfly park, fish spa. YAY!

10 over years not going there??
I totally cant remember how it look like. and like finally, underwater world.
Next visit might be after 10 years? LOL. nothing much!

Dolphin's show!
Have I ever watch before?
just like a tourist today, and guess we are the only few Singaporeans around? :) lol.

Fish spa, yay!
the last time i did this was at Batam.
and this time round the fishes are bigger. omg, so scary.
just imagine you dont even dare to put your hands to touch a fish. but now you gotta put my legs into it!

Butterfly park next, i was the one who wanted to go.
Nothing much once again. i think Singapore should do something about it.
the butterfly park is so small, zomgggg.
and not many flying around. maybe 10?

Watched this 4D show??? ermmm, nothing much as usual. .lol

Sitting at Sentosa's Starbucks for a Mocha and Cheesecake, thats called enjoying life.
had a great dinner. they two def made my day.

and off to club at night, met Cecline! :)
and got wasted as usual.

♥ 6:12 PM