My story,My life

Monday, November 28, 2011

Neknek!

Headed over bright vision, big change over.

few passed away.

few transferred out.

hope ward closed.

all the patient headed respect ward.

baby still there,

jie jie, lao shi and a few of them passed away.

one year time, things changed.

and of course, same goes to me too.

Headed with murni this time round, frantically looking for neknek.

Not here?!

Oh my

transferred out, got to know she headed to Green avenue elderly for home???

some ulu place, and yes, we headed there.

hard time finding, seeing neknek having dinner.

and from far, she turned with that shocking face.

wondering how we managed to find her, yes we just did it for you.

Heading over Aniq's place, another patient of mine.
its a visiting day eh???
His birthday, this boy grown up. running up and down, super hyperactive, out of control, i gave up.
:) lovely.

♥ 12:35 AM

Friday, November 25, 2011

4 nights. was horror.

the 3 of us only, and yes wtf.

4 rooms, 16 patients.

the diapers, you just cant throw everything to your junior

and of course the in charge have to do it too.

normally, 11 pm the in charge can sit down and write all the reports. not this round of night tho.

you have to take all the patients parameters before you can sit. diaper rounds, and all crappy christmas light call bells.

oh my, freak grumpy.

4 days in charge, each day 8 reports. write until damn freakin' sian.

3 of us, the team work still there. helpin here and there.

and i shouted at the female patient.

maximum ward management, and all the more i should be nice to her.

cant move. and there she press the call bell like 20 times a min.

no kidding, 20 times i guess.

shouting water water water. hello. give her already spit out, and so what you want.

break the bowl, throw controller, shout.

my fucking god.

testing my patience.

till 630 am, ending shift, cant tolerate all the shitty stuffs.

inside the room, i shouted. real loud. and its the first ever time.

"water water water, i myelf never even got the time to drink water, give you already you spit out and STOP PRESSING THE CALL BELL!"

all 3 patients looked.

dont care if you are gonna complaint. you can prolly get a private nurse if you want 24 hrs attention. but not in this cancer ward. i fuck busy to the max.

black face again. till the 3rd night. telling my staffs, dont care, call someone to stay with her or i am gonna plug out her call bell.

finally forth night, relatives stayed.

peace peace.

we nurses need peace laaaaaa.

♥ 5:03 PM

Saturday, November 19, 2011

His yea made me delete all his texts and no.
Love him but I think I seriously love myself more.
thinking its so pointless. really pointless.

not replacement, dont wanna be substitute.

just dont appear on my phone.
liking you, loving you is my biggest mistake. no more no more.
maybe imma just too nice.
into the same trap the second time. no more third time.
promise myself.

J, seriously full of nonsense.
6 months, enough craps.
imma outta it.

♥ 6:40 PM

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Love this, yayyy!

Just realised, blog is no longer safe?
twitter and facebook as usual, no privacy.
whatsoever. Imma still blogging whatever crappy stuffs i like.
oh chill, its just a blog, why take it so seriously?
just wanna say, i fell too deep.
no matter how much i wanna climb out of this deep deep hole,
i cant.

rita, as usual, my wormy.
she just seems to know all my things,
no matter how much i wanna hide, no hidden secrets.
she knows the everything.
god or what, i got no idea.

to him, you just got me.
my weakest point, being too nice.
being too nice, sometimes people just climb over your head.
dangerous, very indeed.

not thinking that much, why must you be back.
sometimes i do wonder why.

no emo, no emo.

heck it.

With my sgh nurses again.

the one month once gathering.

where the other three?

irritating

the nurses shift work, hard to get all together.

just wanna be with them, whine as much as I can.

whine patients crappy shit. treating nurses like slave. what fuck?

year end,

more and more activities.

hong kong, zouk out, my birthday, christmas, hotel party.

how not to have this happening life.

it wouldnt be so me anymore if there isnt any happening life uh.

i will be bored to death maybe.

photo wise, will take as much as i can.

tehheeeee.

last photo to end my post.

pardon my ugly eyes today. so not right:( oh my.

♥ 1:14 AM

Thursday, November 10, 2011

After like 3 days not stepping into my ward, I got a shock once again.
Bed 1, so ill-looking.
Bed 2, unresponsive.
Bed 3, chemotherapy.
Bed 4, unresponsive.

This is just one of my room.
Not to mention my other room.

They're mean enough to throw me to be in Charge right after my off days.

And I only know one patient outta my 8 patients.

I am nursing my reports more than my patients. And I got tons of reports to write!

document the every crappy stuffs, just to cover my backside yes?
Indeed tiring. I'm prepared to pack at least one patient today. God bless me.

♥ 5:56 AM

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Footloose for the day, awesome.
Poly friends, not forgotten.
Still close.
The only joke, naqiah wanna be ladylike for the whole night.
But she failed.
Laughed so loud, beat me infront of public, talked so loud.
Need improvement heh.
Peace peace naqiah.

♥ 4:42 PM

And he's back.
A text from him, no matter how much I tried to forget someone.
When whatsapp appear his name, I knew it.
Pretend nothing happen?!
What's going on.
Confused? Lost? Missing him?
I got no idea. So don't ask.
The messages I got from him, neither do I want it to be a habit.
Habit of having him appearing on my phone all the time?
With the morning wishes and all sort.
6 months ago, i remembered how hard I tried to let him stay by my side.
Be the nicest girl, who was there listening to him.
And got badly hurt by him too.
And now he's back.
After 2 months, of trying so so so hard to forget about him.
Hey boy, I don't want to get hurt anymore.
And why make a girl so lost again.

♥ 12:37 PM

Saturday, November 5, 2011

After a chat, gossiping too much about this particular person. Actually to me, of course once she was my best friend. When we used to meet up 3 times a week? Party all night long together? First trip outta Singapore together? Same dream, same career, same estate, common friends, same school. Many many, I can't possible name out the everything because we simply share too many things together. Still good here without her, never will I feel lonely when someone leave me? Used to have her beside me, listening to all my sorrows. Listen to my gossips and all sorts of craps I can give her. Telling people, she is really really good as a friend. From the bottom of my heart.Months without contacting, deleted her from everywhere?
A lil mean I know, I must be that bad person. But never will I forget how she leave a friend because of someone. And you just hit my weakest point. Girls who choose boyfriend more than a girlfriend. That's your fault. Misunderstanding, I doubt so? The last message that I
received, doubt you know how much you hurt a friend. Back to friends, never will I think of it. Peace, love all my friends out there. And promise to cherish every single friend of mine. Love, June.

♥ 11:14 PM

Thursday, November 3, 2011

When was the last time I met Machelle?

WE HEADED 313, CINELEISURE, TAKA, WISMA, FAR EAST, ORCHARD TOWER, ION, NORTHPOINT!
Mad girls.
Havent see like her for like 1 month???
With my night, her night, my night again!

HOW TO MEET!

Gotta blame on nursing eh.

gonna settle my toothache tomorrow.

Reluctant to extract another tooth of mine?
But what to do, i need to.
Its killing me everyday.

Popping 10 panadol every single day, i hate the pain.

work wise, i'm used to the not eating part.

the dying patients, nothing much to say.

and today, having realise that karma do strike.

the way you hurt people, now its the turn you get hurt?

maybe thats fate?

and I wonder which girl cause the breakup?

or it might be you that cause all the craps.

not missing, i hope not.

♥ 2:29 AM