My story,My life

Monday, February 6, 2012

There was one who was only 25 when he left us.
Now there's another who's 29 who left us.
In oncology, no matter how much you wanna draw a line between work and personal life, you'll just feel depressed when your closer patient left you.
The point when you feel no mather how much chemotherapy they're going through is just so useless?

He was the first one I resusitated after a chemo reaction.
He was the first one who called me opera because of my eyeshadow.
He was the first one who gave me a doll.

hey boy, i prayed so hard that you can still live on, never will i expect i got a news saying you left us.
you left.
Remembered that we talked through phone on my birthday.
it was really nice hearing your voice.
And calling back the ward, and you asking, "june eh?"
its really sweettt.

To haemato ward, seeing the confused you, and of course i know you wouldnt want to be in this state.
To ICU, seeing you intubated, heartache.
Drawing the curtain, seeing the pale you lying in that cold and empty room, i almost broke down.

Alex, you made me realised life is just so short for us to regret.
You made me realised I have to cherish every each moment of my life.
You made me realised staying positive is the best outta everything.

I gave you so many times of platelets and blood transfusions?
I see you almost every single day for like more than 4 months?
We chatted so so many times.

This time round, i just hope your girlfriend will be good without you. at least you gave her good memories. She was the one who walked through this whole process with you, and now you leaving her behind, i just hope she'll be fine, really really fine.

Alex, rest in peace.
:(

♥ 8:43 PM